Saturday, September 17, 2011
Please!
If you believe in prayer, please pray. If you believe in fasting, please fast. If you believe in
faith, please have faith that our Heavenly Father will heal Ellen Fry. Doctors have failed her and
now it's time for us to lift her up to the Lord so that he will hear our cries and save a woman
who is too young die. To know her is to love her. Please Please Please Lord heal her.
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
43 Pounds
After I got married I gained 43 pounds. I was already disappointed in myself for weighing as much as I did when I got married. I did not think I could possibly get any bigger than my heaviest I have ever been on my wedding day.
I am not depressed or feeling bad for myself because 2 years ago (1 year after I got married and gained 43 pounds) I started calorie counting. I didn't focus on loosing weight, only on documenting what I ate and how many calories I was consuming.
As of today, I have lost 36 pounds. It has been a long road, and I plan on staying on this path....pretty much for the rest of my life because lets face it, it's not going to get any easier.
Sometimes I get sad because this summer I know like 4 people who have lost a ton of weight and are looking pretty fantastic and I am still in slow-mo land, but ultimately I believe in the process and myself. I am glad for their success as well as mine;)
Now lets eat..... jk
I am not depressed or feeling bad for myself because 2 years ago (1 year after I got married and gained 43 pounds) I started calorie counting. I didn't focus on loosing weight, only on documenting what I ate and how many calories I was consuming.
As of today, I have lost 36 pounds. It has been a long road, and I plan on staying on this path....pretty much for the rest of my life because lets face it, it's not going to get any easier.
Sometimes I get sad because this summer I know like 4 people who have lost a ton of weight and are looking pretty fantastic and I am still in slow-mo land, but ultimately I believe in the process and myself. I am glad for their success as well as mine;)
Now lets eat..... jk
Sunday, September 11, 2011
9/11
I don't have much to say about this 10th anniversary of 9/11 that has not been said on television and articles everywhere.
I am pretty sure we all remember where we were and what we were doing when we heard of the horrible news. I am also sure that to many, much like myself, it still feels like it happened yesterday.
I just want to take a moment to thank the good Lord for all the heroes that emerged from the tragedy and my heart goes out to the family of those who died.
9/11 should weigh on all our hearts everyday and then maybe we could set aside our own petty differences and get along with one another.
We are all American's under God... we all love strong and deep, so may today be a reminder of bigger things and may we have perspective on what really matters.
I am pretty sure we all remember where we were and what we were doing when we heard of the horrible news. I am also sure that to many, much like myself, it still feels like it happened yesterday.
I just want to take a moment to thank the good Lord for all the heroes that emerged from the tragedy and my heart goes out to the family of those who died.
9/11 should weigh on all our hearts everyday and then maybe we could set aside our own petty differences and get along with one another.
We are all American's under God... we all love strong and deep, so may today be a reminder of bigger things and may we have perspective on what really matters.
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Friday, September 9, 2011
Things are different
It's hard to write when I'm overwhelmed with words and thoughts.
I got back from Tucson a little over a week ago and I returned home with a different sort of feeling. I can feel the fall in the air and hunting season just on the horizon, but it feels different this year. I think my time in Arizona changed me in a small way.
I discovered a lot about my family, myself and my friends. Not all the things I discovered were good, but a lot of it was and it left me longing to go back to the Southwest in the near future.
In my short stint in Arizona I discovered that just because your family is your family doesn't mean they have to be friends. I love my family very much, but if they make me feel bad for being me than I want to do a better job surrounding myself with people that love me unconditionally the way I love them.
I discovered I have friends and family that accept me for me and love me and find me interesting (words from a great friend named Eddie) just the way I am. I am going to spend less time with those who make me feel bad or those who are negative and too busy pointing fingers at me to see they have the same flaws they accuse me of having.
I feel a veil has been lifted and all though much ugly has been exposed, there was so much beauty and loyalty exposed too.... and that make me very happy.
My heart goes out to those I got to know better during my Tucson trip: Sarah and Eric T., Ken S., David D., Crystal D., Pocket and her husband, Tom and Brenda, Becky T., Chris B., Barbara (Tyrel's Aunt), Steve, Marina and their kids, Grandma and pa Turner, Mikey Blackwell, Eddie, Amber and even Robert P. whom I did not get the chance to see- but I still adore, Patricia B.and her family, Kelly L. and her family, Lisa, Paul and Catrina, and Kenny P.
If you feel you should be on this list, please accept my apology for not including you.
Jenny I am so sorry we couldn't come see you. You are always on my list of favorite people.
I am not sure if those listed above even know how much I needed their friendship and love, but you helped me get through a very tough time and I will never forget it. Thank you all for being so great to me;)
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Saturday, August 6, 2011
The Big Dipper
Earlier tonight, Dean and I were in the jeep driving home from watching a movie with my sister and Tyrel (her husband), when I looked up and noticed the big dipper. I told Dean that the big dipper will always remind me of my dad. He asked why.
I told him of a time many years ago when I lived with my mom after my parent‘s divorce. My mom and I had gotten into another fight and once again I was torn between living with her and my dad. I had called my dad over that night so he would pick me up so I could stay with him.
While I waited for my dad to come, I remember my sister and I crying and holding each other in the hallway. She told me that she loved me and wanted to go with me, but she didn’t know if she wanted stay with mom or go with me to dad’s.
When my dad came, I went outside to meet him. I was upset and still crying. My dad was and still is not good with that sort of stuff, so he directed his attention to the stars. He showed me where the big dipper was and talked about what he knew of other stars that shined above us.
I later connected that conversation with my dad as his way of distracting and helping me through a tough time. It was his way of saying I’m sorry it’s got to be this way and I love you.
Since that night and ‘til my last night on earth, I will always be reminded of my dad when I see that big dipper.
I told him of a time many years ago when I lived with my mom after my parent‘s divorce. My mom and I had gotten into another fight and once again I was torn between living with her and my dad. I had called my dad over that night so he would pick me up so I could stay with him.
While I waited for my dad to come, I remember my sister and I crying and holding each other in the hallway. She told me that she loved me and wanted to go with me, but she didn’t know if she wanted stay with mom or go with me to dad’s.
When my dad came, I went outside to meet him. I was upset and still crying. My dad was and still is not good with that sort of stuff, so he directed his attention to the stars. He showed me where the big dipper was and talked about what he knew of other stars that shined above us.
I later connected that conversation with my dad as his way of distracting and helping me through a tough time. It was his way of saying I’m sorry it’s got to be this way and I love you.
Since that night and ‘til my last night on earth, I will always be reminded of my dad when I see that big dipper.
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Thursday, August 4, 2011
WHITE KNIGHTS
There's this house down my street on the corner, it looks pretty normal, but then there's this truck parked out toward the main street beside the house, it is not normal.
It has a huge American flag raised in the bed of the truck, then there is a slightly smaller confederate flag also raised in the bed of the truck and then to top it off the bumper has the words WHITE KNIGHTS printed very obvious and big.
I am not 100% sure what the WHITE KNIGHTS means exactly, but I am pretty sure they are trying to make some white power stand.
My question to them is.... if you wanted to make a stand, why would you choose to do it here in North Idaho where almost everybody is white?
Why don't they go to the south side of Tucson where I'm from, and then sport that racist crap to make their stand... let's see how long they last down there where not everybody is white?
I can not stand racism, it's a pet peeve of mine, I dislike racist attitudes, jokes and comments. I got my ass kicked growing up because I was a white girl. Imagine how bad it would have been if I was racist and sported prejudice paraphernalia, I would have gone from getting beat up to being killed.
I hate seeing that stupid truck, but when I do see it, I think of all my friends and family who are not white and I love them just a little bit more..... every time.
It has a huge American flag raised in the bed of the truck, then there is a slightly smaller confederate flag also raised in the bed of the truck and then to top it off the bumper has the words WHITE KNIGHTS printed very obvious and big.
I am not 100% sure what the WHITE KNIGHTS means exactly, but I am pretty sure they are trying to make some white power stand.
My question to them is.... if you wanted to make a stand, why would you choose to do it here in North Idaho where almost everybody is white?
Why don't they go to the south side of Tucson where I'm from, and then sport that racist crap to make their stand... let's see how long they last down there where not everybody is white?
I can not stand racism, it's a pet peeve of mine, I dislike racist attitudes, jokes and comments. I got my ass kicked growing up because I was a white girl. Imagine how bad it would have been if I was racist and sported prejudice paraphernalia, I would have gone from getting beat up to being killed.
I hate seeing that stupid truck, but when I do see it, I think of all my friends and family who are not white and I love them just a little bit more..... every time.
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Monday, August 1, 2011
He did not win
He injured and killed innocent people, but he did not win.
She received a huge warm welcome as she entered the building. I think if we were there we would have all joined in as tears, cheering and clapping filled the floor of the House of Representatives today.
Our prayers have been answered and all though we lost innocent beloved people, we gained a miracle. Her strength and endurance is stronger and bigger than the evil that caused so much devastation last January in Tucson.
He did not win.
She received a huge warm welcome as she entered the building. I think if we were there we would have all joined in as tears, cheering and clapping filled the floor of the House of Representatives today.
Our prayers have been answered and all though we lost innocent beloved people, we gained a miracle. Her strength and endurance is stronger and bigger than the evil that caused so much devastation last January in Tucson.
He did not win.
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