Things are different

It's hard to write when I'm overwhelmed with words and thoughts. 

I got back from Tucson a little over a week ago and I returned home with a different sort of feeling. I can feel the fall in the air and hunting season just on the horizon, but it feels different this year. I think my time in Arizona changed me in a small way. 

I discovered a lot about my family, myself and my friends. Not all the things I discovered were good, but a lot of it was and it left me longing to go back to the Southwest in the near future.

In my short stint in Arizona I discovered that just because your family is your family doesn't mean they have to be friends. I love my family very much, but if they make me feel bad for being me than I want to do a better job surrounding myself with people that love me unconditionally the way I love them.

I discovered I have friends and family that accept me for me and love me and find me interesting (words from a great friend named Eddie) just the way I am. I am going to spend less time with those who make me feel bad or those who are negative and too busy pointing fingers at me to see they have the same flaws they accuse me of having.

I feel a veil has been lifted and all though much ugly has been exposed, there was so much beauty and loyalty exposed too.... and that make me very happy. 

My heart goes out to those I got to know better during my Tucson trip: Sarah and Eric T., Ken S., David D., Crystal D., Pocket and her husband, Tom and Brenda, Becky T., Chris B., Barbara (Tyrel's Aunt), Steve, Marina and their kids, Grandma and pa Turner, Mikey Blackwell, Eddie, Amber and even Robert P. whom I did not get the chance to see- but I still adore, Patricia B.and her family, Kelly L. and her family, Lisa, Paul and Catrina, and Kenny P.      

If you feel you should be on this list, please accept my apology for not including you.           

Jenny I am so sorry we couldn't come see you. You are always on my list of favorite people.

I am not sure if those listed above even know how much I needed their friendship and love, but you helped me get through a very tough time and I will never forget it. Thank you all for being so great to me;)

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