The good ones die young

I don’t think I will ever fully grasp the extent of all Ellen’s illnesses. When I first met her over 10 years ago, she had just beat breast cancer. Since then she has had one thing after another happen to her health and this is not to mention all the things she has been through before I knew her.

I am sad my ultimate prayer for a miracle was not answered, but when I think about it, Ellen has had so many miracles over the years. She was blessed with life over and over again as life threatening illness attacked her over and over again, she was blessed with two strong beautiful boys, one of which provided her with two perfect grandbabies. Her life was filled with miracles.

There will be no more heartache, no more pain for a woman who has endured more than her fair share of both.

The bravest person I know passed away yesterday at 11:20 a.m. Ellen was only 54 years old.

“The good ones die young”.

Please!

If you believe in prayer, please pray. If you believe in fasting, please fast. If you believe in


faith, please have faith that our Heavenly Father will heal Ellen Fry. Doctors have failed her and


now it's time for us to lift her up to the Lord so that he will hear our cries and save a woman


who is too young die. To know her is to love her. Please Please Please Lord heal her.

43 Pounds

After I got married I gained 43 pounds. I was already disappointed in myself for weighing as much as I did when I got married. I did not think I could possibly get any bigger than my heaviest I have ever been on my wedding day.

I am not depressed or feeling bad for myself because 2 years ago (1 year after I got married and gained 43 pounds) I started calorie counting. I didn't focus on loosing weight, only on documenting what I ate and how many calories I was consuming.

As of today, I have lost 36 pounds. It has been a long road, and I plan on staying on this path....pretty much for the rest of my life because lets face it, it's not going to get any easier.

Sometimes I get sad because this summer I know like 4 people who have lost a ton of weight and are looking pretty fantastic and I am still in slow-mo land, but ultimately I believe in the process and myself. I am glad for their success as well as mine;)

Now lets eat..... jk

9/11

I don't have much to say about this 10th anniversary of 9/11 that has not been said on television and articles everywhere.

I am pretty sure we all remember where we were and what we were doing when we heard of the horrible news. I am also sure that to many, much like myself, it still feels like it happened yesterday.

I just want to take a moment to thank the good Lord for all the heroes that emerged from the tragedy and my heart goes out to the family of those who died.

9/11 should weigh on all our hearts everyday and then maybe we could set aside our own petty differences and get along with one another.

We are all American's under God... we all love strong and deep, so may today be a reminder of bigger things and may we have perspective on what really matters.

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Things are different

It's hard to write when I'm overwhelmed with words and thoughts. 

I got back from Tucson a little over a week ago and I returned home with a different sort of feeling. I can feel the fall in the air and hunting season just on the horizon, but it feels different this year. I think my time in Arizona changed me in a small way. 

I discovered a lot about my family, myself and my friends. Not all the things I discovered were good, but a lot of it was and it left me longing to go back to the Southwest in the near future.

In my short stint in Arizona I discovered that just because your family is your family doesn't mean they have to be friends. I love my family very much, but if they make me feel bad for being me than I want to do a better job surrounding myself with people that love me unconditionally the way I love them.

I discovered I have friends and family that accept me for me and love me and find me interesting (words from a great friend named Eddie) just the way I am. I am going to spend less time with those who make me feel bad or those who are negative and too busy pointing fingers at me to see they have the same flaws they accuse me of having.

I feel a veil has been lifted and all though much ugly has been exposed, there was so much beauty and loyalty exposed too.... and that make me very happy. 

My heart goes out to those I got to know better during my Tucson trip: Sarah and Eric T., Ken S., David D., Crystal D., Pocket and her husband, Tom and Brenda, Becky T., Chris B., Barbara (Tyrel's Aunt), Steve, Marina and their kids, Grandma and pa Turner, Mikey Blackwell, Eddie, Amber and even Robert P. whom I did not get the chance to see- but I still adore, Patricia B.and her family, Kelly L. and her family, Lisa, Paul and Catrina, and Kenny P.      

If you feel you should be on this list, please accept my apology for not including you.           

Jenny I am so sorry we couldn't come see you. You are always on my list of favorite people.

I am not sure if those listed above even know how much I needed their friendship and love, but you helped me get through a very tough time and I will never forget it. Thank you all for being so great to me;)

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