I have a tough time with the thought of dying.
I know older people (older than me and well past 65) that seem to have excepted the fact that they are in or are approaching the winter of their life. I often wonder if it's because they have experienced the death of parents, uncles/aunts, husband/wife, siblings and friends or if they have just excepted the inevitable.
I also wonder if maybe they believe they will get to see their loved ones again, so this helps with the process.
I love the Lord Jesus Christ very much and I want to be with him always... in life and death, but excepting the concept of death is hard for me, as I am sure it is for other people.
Maybe I don't want to go because of all my sins, maybe because I am not sure the Lord will take me, maybe because I feel I have way too much to change and work on to die any time soon..... I don't know exactly.
All I do know is that if I out live my parents, uncles/aunts, husband, brother or sister, and friends, I may become more open minded to dying because I can't imagine life without them.
I am selfish in the way that I want to see my babies grow up and I want to hold their babies and I want things for my life before the time comes to start the next. I'm sure once we're in heaven that will be so silly to even think about but here and now, it's hard to imagine not being here.
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