When I was Pregnant

The short time I was pregnant, I was so happy. I had meaning to life, I knew that there was something bigger than myself fixin' to come my way. I was so content and happy in my life, job and husband. Now... well let's just say nothing is right, maybe things are not right because I have P.M.S. again and did not miss it the two months I was without. Maybe it's because I am lost without a bigger purpose, maybe it's because I hate working graveyard it makes me very irritable, and unhappy I don't know. I miss being pregnant and want to be a mommy some day, but now is not the time, so in the mean time???