I caught myself....

talking to a fly today.

This morning, I noticed a huge fly kept ramming itself into the mirror in the bathroom. I said out loud to the fly,

"It's okay, I see how you  would keep doing that, because it looks like there's another room in there, doesn't it? I get it."

It was then that I realized I really miss Dean...

I need someone to talk too around the house. I don't want anymore one sided conversations with flies.

Everyone Woman Should....

Last year, I did vanity pictures for an awesome gal I really think is great. She told me it was liberating and fun and every woman should have some taken, so I took her advice. I had her and my sister come over and take some photos of me for Dean's 3 year wedding anniversary gift. 

A part of me didn't want to do them because I didn't look the way I wanted or I felt like I was too big to do something like this, but I shook all my insecurities with the help of Crown Royal and Red Bull, Crown Royal and soda, Crown Royal and diet soda, some Mike's Hard Lemon Aid.... and we went for it...

I had so much fun and if you're reading this and want your own pics done... call me, it just so happens I'm a photographer:)

My relationship with...

my grill.

Before I met Dean, I grilled like I had no stove or oven. I grilled like it was the only way of life, I grilled like... okay you get it, I grilled a lot.

When I met Dean, he sort of took over the grill (like most men I dated). I missed that old thing as Dean spent more and more time with it than I did. It was like a love that was forbidden, it was like a love that must never be, it was like.... okay you get it, I missed the grill.

Anyway... Dean is outta town and I am back to my old ways.... Lovin it!







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Did you see it?

Yesterday was Father's Day and I spent time with my dad, brother and brother-in-law. They are all fathers and I could see just a glimmer of proud in their eyes. Men are awesome, they are so different than woman in so many ways.

Over the years I have noticed that some woman (not all) expect certain things on Mother's Day and often complain about how they wished they could have done this or that, but men are different. It seems men don't expect much so they are thankful for less. I didn't hear one complaint about how the day ended up or how they wanted this or that to happen.

On my way home from my dad's house I saw Father's Day BBQ events, people gathered together to celebrate their dads; as I rubber necked several of these events I could tell which men were dads because they just had that happy look on their face.

I am not sure if anybody noticed the look, but next year, if you remember, look at your dad or other dads on father's day and you will see it, the look of joy and happiness that they are dads. I saw it, did you?

I just don't care

Jolenda and I went to a late night movie last night. It was very fun, we really don't spend enough time together without kids. Thanks Tyrel for watching them so we could have some sister time.

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So anyway, this guy was talking to us in the snack line and asked us what we were gonna get. There were two answers to this question... One answer would be like: "a little snack"... and that was if I was single and not married. My answer was:" I'm gonna tear it up".

He told me that we couldn't carry much... There were two ways to reply to that comment... One reply would be, "oh we'll manage"... and that was if I was single and not married. My answer was: "It's all good, I can turn my shirt into a bowl by flipping out the edges and load it up".

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True Story.....

You'd be Surprised

Since Dean has been gone, I have had vehicle problems three times. I have been stranded at a grocery store, stuck at home and parked in a neighborhood waiting for my uncle to come help me.

You'd be surprised at how many awesome people there are in Hayden, Idaho. One gal offered to stay with me because a man was helping me jump my battery and she wanted me to have the option of having her there to make me feel more comfortable. I took her up on her offer and I thanked her redundantly.

I do not have a cell phone and everyone I talked too had no problem letting me use their phone to call for help. I never had to wait for very long before some nice person would offer help. This makes me very happy, the car problems - not so much.

The jeep is finally officially fixed (for now). My back up vehicle, the Ford 150, needs a new radiator and I am not going to touch it 'til Dean gets back because I am so frustrated with all the mechanical problems I've been having.

The moral of this short tail is that you'd be surprised to know how many awesome people there are in this world just willing to help, I was.

Today is her Someday

Pregnant and married at 15, she dropped out of school to start a family. She's suffered through being a child of an alcoholic, being one of five children, and suffering the loss of her brother before she even turned 30. She has  done her best to raise three kids while she raised herself. She's always worked hard and saved to get the things she's wanted out of life.

Going St. Lucia has been my mom's dream for a long while. I remember many years ago my mom talking about how Kelly Ripa and her husband go vacation at St. Lucia and how she would love to go there someday.

Today is her someday, I am glad she has Ken to share in her dreams becoming a reality. I wish her well on her trip and pray she comes back healthy and safe with lots of memories and pictures.

She deserves her dream vacation.